"most fun"

This blog is not only to encourage people, impart everything I am learning to anyone who wants it, and share wonderful new spiritual things; but to also share and encourage people to enjoy life to the fullest! God has made me a girl who enjoys fun, new, exciting things and experiences His creation and finds joy in life. My parents call me the “most fun” girl because when I was little every time my parents asked us kids if we wanted to do something I would ask, “will it be fun?!” I didn’t want anything to do with it if it was not going to be fun. And to this day that’s pretty much true! =) So my goal is to live life to the fullest and try new things. In the short/long two months I’ve done just that. I’ve pierced my lip, gone cliff jumping, died my hair, cooked several times a week, and just enjoyed life with my roommates and new friends being spontaneous. Today I will be going to a pumpkin patch and carving pumpkins for the first time in my life! Here are some pictures to give you a taste of my life!
Live it up!
~dani b.

My new lip ring!

This was about a 30 foot cliff into 45 degree water!

Before I died my hair.....

after! =)

This is stuffed Bell Peppers with brown rice, vegies, and grilled asparagurs, it is our one our favorite meals! And yes, we made it up! =)

Chocolate Raspberry cake!

Steak, mashed potatoes, corn on the cob, and break. It was a good night.

Intimacy (don’t worry Mom and Dad, not sex)

Well last time you read about my first week of school. The second week was much different. I entered into a season of finding out what intimacy with God really means.
I have always had trouble with my “quite time” and spending time with God. It was so hard for me to find His presence just reading a few chapters in the Bible and going down my “to pray for list.” Every time I heard someone talking about spending hours with God, going to a “secret place” with Jesus and actually talking with Him a jealousy would rise in me. I desperately wanted what others had but had no idea how to get it. I wanted to move in power and love, to be a part of a huge movement of God but then looked around and wondered why it wasn’t happening. I have this powerful consuming desire to do something big for Christ. Then it hit me. I cannot birth something of God without being intimate with Him……..let that one sink in a bit. I cannot birth something of God without being intimate with Him.
Of course my walk with God was not exploding into something amazing, I hardly knew Him. Conviction struck my heart. I did everything just as I should but never sat down to just BE with Jesus, to get to know Him and love on Him. I never realized God needed to be ministered to by ME. Wow. The God of the universe loves me more then I know and I never knew to love Him back the way He wanted; by just enjoying His presence.
In the past few weeks every book I read for school, every sermon I’ve heard, it all pointed to intimacy with Christ. For the first time I realized what it meant to have a personal relationship with God. Oh man, even writing this right now my heart is longing to spend time with my lover. The more I spend time with Him, the more I become like Him. Let that one sink in as well. The more I spend time with God, the more I become like Him. Spending time with God isn’t necessarily reading the Bible or even praying, but sitting there and seeking Him until he shows up and speaks with you and just enjoying His presence. So I locked myself into my room and covered myself with a blanket and asked for intimacy for 15 straight minutes; and God showed up. For the first time in my life God brought me to a secret place for me and Him to sit and actually have a conversation. I spoke with God. He spoke with me. I will never be the same. I will never be satisfied with just reading the Bible now. I will never be satisfied with just reciting prayers of things I need. Now I KNOW I can actually encounter God in such a real way. I spend time with Him, talk with Him, and even just sit with Him; I never want anything less.
I know now I cannot be a revivalist….not yet. I need to have such a personal relationship with God that I know his voice, know his presence, and can enter into it any time and any place; then great things will follow that pure love relationship. How can I hear God’s voice in the world if I don’t take time to hear Him by myself in my room?
Intimacy with God is what I long for. Intimacy with God is what I need. To sit and soak in God’s presence telling Him how much I love Him and allowing Him to speak to my heart. I don’t want anything else but a personal real relationship with Jesus and everything else will flow from that.
I pray this encourages and inspires you.
~dani b.

Emptied

I have never understood the verse in the bible where it says one day with the Lord is like a thousand elsewhere….well now I do!
Most of the time believers go through “seasons” with Jesus. A season of desert, a season of blessing, a season of growth etc. I am not putting God in a box but I have noticed with most people these seasons last a few months, just like the natural seasons. Since I have started the Supernatural School of Ministry (also known as BSSM) four weeks ago, I have gone through FOUR seasons. Ha. Yes I have aged about a hundred times faster in my spiritual life then I ever expected and I have seen this happen in the mirror each week. God has been rocking my world and catapulting me in my faith. I am sure you are thinking, “oh good for you Danielle, that’s wonderful!” And you are right, but I am exhausted!! Can you imagine aging 4 year in 4 weeks?! It is spiritually, mentally, and physically draining and yet God keeps refilling me to overflow. Allow me to start with my first season, week one of school.
We have school Tuesday-Friday from 12:45-5:30, with a small group, home group, and two church services to attend on the weekends. It is quite a tiring schedule when you’re thinking of encountering the Holy Spirit for most of that time, being completely changed, having your foundation shaken then rebuilt, meeting new people every day, and trying to keep up with all the homework which right now includes reading 6 books, writing reports, and answer questioners.
The first week was pretty much hell for me. I realized how much I don’t know and how much gunk God needed to get out of me. I came from a place (and this is where my identity was placed) where I was the leader at all times, pastor’s daughter, feeling like I was hot stuff on the spiritual spectrum, pretty special if you know what I mean……and then I came here. I was in a room of 1,000 other spiritually special people. In fact they were “better” than me! I wasn’t even on the totem pole with these people. I was not noticed, I didn’t have as many prophetic words as everyone else, I was not called out to lead or asked for advice, I didn’t impress anyone. I felt invisible, my identity was stripped away.
The Lord gave me a dream where he tipped my head to the right and sand started falling out of my ear. It was coming in pounds and making a huge pile on the floor. I would tilt my head back up, shake it a bit and still feel the sand in my head, it blurred my eyesight and hindered some of my hearing, so I would tilt my head and dump more sand out. This dream was a perfect picture of what was happening to me the first week of school; I was being dumped out making a perfectly empty person for the Lord to work with. Wonderful…but really painful. I bawled my eyes out after school on the first Friday wondering if it was going to get any better. It was so humbling to see what was inside of me that I had no idea existed. I didn’t want to share God’s love, I didn’t want anyone to be better than I was, I would not celebrate other’s successes…these realizations broke my heart. So I would tilt my head and let Jesus dump more sand out of me. Seriously in worship I would sing with my head tilted to the right prophetically dumping sand out of my head! Every time a thought came into my mind that was not Christ I would just dump it out of my ear. (I would say I looked funny but most people here at BSSM manifest the Holy Spirit in pretty crazy ways so I was quite tame.J)
The first week was a week of deflating Danielle Beacham so the Holy Spirit could breath Himself in to expand me. I had to be broken before I was build back up. Once I realized that I asked Jesus to do His worst. Take anything out and pour more of Himself in. It worked. The next week was a whole different very sweet season that I will share later.
I hope this is encouraging some way somehow. I pray anyone who reads this that the Lord will touch in a new way and new revelation of what is Him or what isn’t Him in any of our thoughts or beliefs.
Love to all,
~dani b.

149 girls!!

Hello Hello Hello!
Yes I am still alive. I apologize it has take me this long to update my blog.

First off I wanted to let you know that after 10 months of being single God brought Brendon back into my life last April of this year!! J I don’t know how that slipped my mind at the end of my testimony! Ooops, sorry Handsome! But long story short, God did some amazing growth in both our hearts and gave us His blessing to enter into a relationship again which has been sweeter, stronger, and better then the first! I love him with all my heart and Brendon is so supportive of me being here doing what God has called me to do.

I am now starting my fourth week of school. The first week was extremely overwhelming. The second week I was sick. The third week I went on a retreat with the school and had my birthday weekend as well. Soooo needless to say, things have been a bit hectic over here.
I cannot wait to share what God has been doing in me and teaching me, but first, drum roll please…..TIME TO MEET THE ROOMMATES and see my home!! =)

I have been blessed with the best roommates anyone could have asked for! It honestly is Jesus how we get along so well and have so much fun together!

Kirsty!!

Kirsty (also known as sweet cheeks or the crazy Aussie) is from Australia and shares my room. She is one of the sweetest girls I have ever met and we hit it off the minute she stepped off the plane! We have become fast friends caring each other through some things and laughing together at everything else! We do have a rivalry thing going on as to which is better, Texas or Australia. Don’t worry, I will win her over! ;)

Ashley!!

Ashley (also known as Prada) is from Wisconsin and is one of the prettiest and funniest girls I have ever known! She has a heart of gold.

Sarah!!

Sarah (also known as Minnesota) can you guess where she is from?! Ooooo yeah, don’t ya know! Haha She is from Minnesota which I of course remind her all the time is inferior to Texas! She woke up one day with my Texas blanket draped over her which I snuck in while she was sleeping, haha! She is wonderful and makes our house complete!

Ashley and Sarah's room!

The Bathroom

I made the things hanging on the wall! =) They are for photos and letters etc.

Mr. Chub and my bed.

Mine and Kirsty's room

Kitchen (we spend most of our time in here)

Dining Room (we have extra chairs for guests)

Part of the living room. This is our Money tree! Sarah is in the middle of painting it and we are believing God will supernaturaly provide for us and prayed over it! I want to see money grow from the tree!

Our living room! Got to love Ikea!