You would think a few months of not posting I would be brimming with things to say. On the contrary, I am speechless. I thought starting this blog my friends and family in Texas could be updated with not only my life but what I am learning every day at school. That is the very reason I haven’t posted in forever. I am learning so much I am on overload and normally have no idea how to put anything into words. It’s even hard to call people in Texas because I have no idea how to tell them what is going on in my life if I don’t even know how to explain anything. All I know is every morning I wake up and every morning I am different from the day before.
I feel like my brain and heart are being filled with so many new revelations, thoughts, prophecies, and sermons that I just want to sit at the end of the day and either write, cry, or stare at a blank wall processing things. I am scared I actually might float away with everything that I am learning; as if everything being deposited in me is helium and I am a quickly expanding balloon. The irony is everything I am learning me is “grounding” me in who I am and what I believe. Ha. If you can’t tell I am a whirlwind of emotions. Floating, grounding, write, cry, quite, stare, I just looked back over the last two paragraphs and I just used all those words to describe me and how I feel right now. Can anyone say, “Emotional overload!”? My poor fiancé and roommates! I honestly have been so blessed with the people in my life. I am learning about unconditional love and what grace really is from Brendon and my roommates; I know I would not be surviving this year without them.
There are so many lessons stirring in me but the biggest one that I find becoming my rock is:
I will trust in the word of God and not my circumstance.
I will trust in who I know God is and what He has said in His word; not at what my circumstance is screaming at me to believe and throwing in my face. For example, just an example, if my bank statement is low and I start worrying about finances my circumstances clearly shows I need start working on getting money even though I know God gave me this year to rest from a job and “normal” life. What the word of God says and what He has actually proven to me is that He provides faithfully! I will believe He provides and I will not act out on my emotions that come up when I see the bank statement. My emotions are a manifestation of what I believe. Simple and cheesy example but I think it gives the point. Right now this is keeping me afloat. When life is rough and my circumstances say everything is going downhill I will trust in that God is good all the time and will work everything out for good. It sounds super “Christian cheesy” but makes all the different in the world….it is also much easier said than done. I happen to be writing this down and posting it to actually help cement this truth into who I am. This of course means I do not have this core value down yet, in fact I quite failed at it last night; yet another example of how my fiancé and roommates show me unconditional love and grace.
That is all for now.
~Dani, a helium balloon.
Thursday, February 24, 2011
So…..I’M ENGAGED! No big deal. ;)
Here is the story of the best proposal ever:
I had two weeks in Texas for my Christmas holiday from school. I flew in late Saturday night the 19th. Brendon planned an all day date for me on Tuesday the 21st. One thing that you must know is I am a planner; I will have everything written down in a list, color coordinated, with the best time efficiency. Brendon is a more chill man who goes with the flow. So when he planned an all day event with reservations and everything it spoke to my heart of his love for me by loving me the way I feel loved! (Yes we took the Danny Silk relationship study together. Haha)
He took me to the Gaylord Texas to see the ICE exhibit. Very sweet and very cold! I actually didn’t think he would propose since we talked about waiting till after I graduate in May and plus it was 9 degrees in the ice exhibit so needless to say I was just trying to enjoy the day and not thinking about a ring. After the tour he drove me to Dallas to Cafe Istanbul with a dozen red roses waiting for me on the table. This is when my brain started turning and wondering if anything else (aka a ring) would happen that night! After dinner he took me to our favorite park where we had our first kiss. On the way there he told me he had a gift for me. This is the part where I started freaking out praying he would propose but still trying to push it out of my head. Oh the joys of being a girl. When we got to the park everything was perfect. It was dark, but we had a full moon, cold but not freezing and we were walking down to the bench where we first kissed with a pond and a lit fountain in the background. It was brilliant. But as we were walking to the bench he started pulling out “the gift,” my heart sunk when I saw a bag of dark chocolates. Dark chocolate is my favorite but when a girl is expecting a diamond it is a bit disappointing. But I put a smile on my face and told myself not to ruin this perfect date that Brendon planned for me. I thanked him for the chocolate and realized the bag was already opened after he told me to have a piece. I of course became quite mad realizing he didn’t have a ring and it seemed that he already had a piece of MY chocolate. Oh yet again the joys of being a girl. When I opened the already opened bag of chocolate I discovered that each piece of chocolate had a love letter attached to it, 13 letters in all! My heart jumped back up after being sunk and started going crazy. We sat down and for the next 30 minutes I read every heartfelt love letter. Each letter started with a different nickname he calls and had a theme to go with that letter. By the last letter we were standing in the dim gardens of the park, he was behind me with his arms around me holding me close with his hands in my coat pockets. The last love letter told me to pull out something in my right coat pocket, turn around, hand it to him and look at him in the eyes. He had slipped the ring box in my coat pocket and when I turned around he gave me a beautiful speech, got down on one knee and asked if I would spend the rest of my life with him! It was the most beautiful and heartfelt proposal which made me laugh and cry all at the same time! I of course said yes and told him I was honored to have such a right standing, kind, and loving man choose me. After 10 minutes of laughing, crying and kissing, he took me to his house where there was a surprise engagement party waiting for us!! It was perfect. I am going to marry the most amazing man I know. I am so honored and blessed to be Brendon Wheeler’s wife!
Here is the story of the best proposal ever:
I had two weeks in Texas for my Christmas holiday from school. I flew in late Saturday night the 19th. Brendon planned an all day date for me on Tuesday the 21st. One thing that you must know is I am a planner; I will have everything written down in a list, color coordinated, with the best time efficiency. Brendon is a more chill man who goes with the flow. So when he planned an all day event with reservations and everything it spoke to my heart of his love for me by loving me the way I feel loved! (Yes we took the Danny Silk relationship study together. Haha)
He took me to the Gaylord Texas to see the ICE exhibit. Very sweet and very cold! I actually didn’t think he would propose since we talked about waiting till after I graduate in May and plus it was 9 degrees in the ice exhibit so needless to say I was just trying to enjoy the day and not thinking about a ring. After the tour he drove me to Dallas to Cafe Istanbul with a dozen red roses waiting for me on the table. This is when my brain started turning and wondering if anything else (aka a ring) would happen that night! After dinner he took me to our favorite park where we had our first kiss. On the way there he told me he had a gift for me. This is the part where I started freaking out praying he would propose but still trying to push it out of my head. Oh the joys of being a girl. When we got to the park everything was perfect. It was dark, but we had a full moon, cold but not freezing and we were walking down to the bench where we first kissed with a pond and a lit fountain in the background. It was brilliant. But as we were walking to the bench he started pulling out “the gift,” my heart sunk when I saw a bag of dark chocolates. Dark chocolate is my favorite but when a girl is expecting a diamond it is a bit disappointing. But I put a smile on my face and told myself not to ruin this perfect date that Brendon planned for me. I thanked him for the chocolate and realized the bag was already opened after he told me to have a piece. I of course became quite mad realizing he didn’t have a ring and it seemed that he already had a piece of MY chocolate. Oh yet again the joys of being a girl. When I opened the already opened bag of chocolate I discovered that each piece of chocolate had a love letter attached to it, 13 letters in all! My heart jumped back up after being sunk and started going crazy. We sat down and for the next 30 minutes I read every heartfelt love letter. Each letter started with a different nickname he calls and had a theme to go with that letter. By the last letter we were standing in the dim gardens of the park, he was behind me with his arms around me holding me close with his hands in my coat pockets. The last love letter told me to pull out something in my right coat pocket, turn around, hand it to him and look at him in the eyes. He had slipped the ring box in my coat pocket and when I turned around he gave me a beautiful speech, got down on one knee and asked if I would spend the rest of my life with him! It was the most beautiful and heartfelt proposal which made me laugh and cry all at the same time! I of course said yes and told him I was honored to have such a right standing, kind, and loving man choose me. After 10 minutes of laughing, crying and kissing, he took me to his house where there was a surprise engagement party waiting for us!! It was perfect. I am going to marry the most amazing man I know. I am so honored and blessed to be Brendon Wheeler’s wife!
Here are some pictures of the day!
Brendon and I at the Gaylord Texan to see the ICE exhibit
It was a Peanuts theme.
At dinner with the red roses waiting for me at the table.
Right when my Mom opened the door to the suprise party.
He makes me a happy woman!
The Ring!
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